Thank you both for your replies. Really appreciate both. Nicole, well she has issues sure I knew this before booking up I knew she would be “hard” but I also seen the good in her and there is so much good it’s just been pushed to one side I feel by issues and her past she’s never dealt with.

She was adopted so her start to life was not ideal. She got pregnant young and they guy ran off never to be seen again. She had abusive relationships one after the other but mostly men just not wanting her or being able or wanting to help. I did want too.

Her life is filled with death and rejection and she obviously has a low self worth. She chased me for months. We got on so well. She said she was so happy to find a guy as decent and good as me. It’s why I found it hard she gave it up so easy. Maybe she wasn’t used to my type and felt out of place having a guy who did love her.