Hello

Thank you soooooo much for taking time to reply to this. The simple fact that you guys took time out of your life to help a complete stranger amazes me and makes
me feel hope in the world. After work today i took a drive and kept driving all over the place. I went to the beach me and my ex used to go too. Just to prove to myself that i can enjoy things we did together alone and that she can’t take them away from me and make think of her when i do them. But i found as i started heading home i felt sad and the closer i got to home the sadder i felt until i cried when i was pulling up the drive. I don’t know maybe i thought i was going to drive right into my solution and it didn’t happen. Anyway i’m going to look into this Metta meditation, not that it’s anything i’d even think to do normally but i want to be more open minded so why not. I just need to get the highs to out way the lows but i feel sometimes i’m holding on to the lows, the memories.