Thank you very much for your thoughtful response Matt. I really feel like reaching out to him would be the best option, I am just having so much trouble taking that first step. I think the fear of rejection is what prevents me from doing so, but as you said I did not reject my mother; so why would he reject me? And if he does I will have some measure of peace knowing that I did show him compassion, rather than continue in silence.

Thank you again

Kyle