Hi Annie and Anita,
First off all, i want to thank you for all your amazing insights. It truly does put everything into perspective and I am on the same page as both of you. I truly want to help but as Anita mentioned, it may take professional help in order to fix this.
I think that reading both your feedbacks, has cleared my mind and I am no longer blinded by just craving the familiarity and comfort that she provided in our relationship. So because of it, it made me want her back. Even during the relationship, I had wanted to leave because we would always argue and when we do, its always about her accusations of me. So i really got so mad and yelled at her and it takes me a lot to yell at someone since i am a very calm person. She apologized every time after the argument. It’s like she cant control her jealousy. Even when i pay for an item when buying something, she thinks im flirting with the cashier or thinks that the cashier is flirting with me, so she would go pay for me instead. She even thinks my friends girlfriends are after me or i want them. I can’t believe that, its my friends.
I think i am doing the right thing and with both of your feedback and insights I feel a lot more at ease and a confirmation that I am on the right path to happiness.
Thank you to you both. Its an amazing feeling to know that there are strangers who care!