OMG – I can’t believe I have just read this post! It is EXACTLY how I feel right now! I am trying to recover from an eating disorder and I too am struggling to find some sense of purpose/meaning to my life. I am currently studying (or at least trying to, but I can’t really focus). I feel so lost and I just don’t know what to do with my time. I’m even doubting whether the course I am studying at university is the right one for me…..I have no enthusiasm to study it and therefore no motivation. Sigh. Sorry I’ve not been of much help, but I just wanted to let you know that I can completely empathise with your situation! 🙂