my husband walked out on our 9 year marriage 4 months ago and I have been praying ever since that he comes back to me. He has such anger and hatred in his heart but refuses to tell me what I have done. He left for work one night kissed me said I love you and never came back home. He says he wants to do what he wants when he wants and I do know I was controlling and jealous. There is a big age difference between us me being the older of us and I have been dealing with breast cancer and the effects of chemo and al the surgeries for the past 3 years I know it has taken a toll on the marriage.Now he has a woman that he’s met closer to his age and has a child something he said he didn’t want he parades her all over town. Most family and friends are upset by these actions. He does communicate with me. It started out we only had 5 min conversation in person since he left and then it has been with others around. I wont call him or text him because when this first happened I did all the calling, texting writing of emails begging and pleading with him and I know this just pushed him further away. It never failed after about 3 days he would text me not really wanting anything but it never ended well.Then it started that he would text every night while he is working he is a truck driver. He is living in the house we were evicted from that’s a long story but he said to me its not the same it just doesn’t feel like home any more. I was told that he had said some really bad things about me. When he was faced with that he was very upset and adamant that he had not said that. He was desperate almost for me to believe him. The after 3 months of not talking on phone he has called a few times. He is always wanting to know if I am ok if I am sure do I need anything and gets upset if he thinks he has upset me. Asks if I’m mad ect…But when I bring up the girl friend in any way he gets cold and stops talking. I am so confused. We have divorce in the works which I dont want after every thing I still love him. What am I to make of his communications with me?