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  • July 17, 2017 at 1:23 pm #158582
    Homi
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    Helloooo ! Namaste!

    Dear Anita:

    You are right. It is my life and i have do decide, to make a choice. I did spent some time in nature and it helps. I hope i will have the strenght to do that more often. Thank you for the advice.

    Dear Mark:

    Thank you for your answer. That helped me too. In particular the part that i got to let the thoughts ”slide”. I like that. Thanks.

    I have a lot to work. Interior work. I will post again with results soon.

    Thank you all again !

    July 5, 2017 at 10:20 am #156492
    Homi
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    Hellooo!! Namaste !

    Dear Anita:

    Thank you for response. This made me to reach to another level of understanding myself.

    The inner forces means that there are 2 parts of my mind. One tells me to continue the things that i am doing right now -go to work, finish the faculty, get a better job (mor like in domain), get married, make kids, raise them, etc. The other tells me that i do not want any illusions anymore; doing that i find myself returning to the beggining, where men lived in nature peacefully. The truth is that i am acting like a coward. The first part is like a made up plan from society, i am living with it, and the most of the time i accepted it, and the second is like an utopic lifestyle which i found it somewhere along the way in books, movies or stories. I am not brave enought to do one of the parts (ways) correctly . I feel cought in the middle.

    Here comes the outer forces. I found them in people surrounding me that have their own battles that hurts me too, knowingly or unknowingly . So i see people fighting with each other. EG: the good from X with the bad from Y. In the next day is vice versa. I find myself in each side of the battle. How much identification with the others, right? And i know is not good for me. And i fall for that so that is why i reach to a point where i said to myself : ” Why are you fighting each other? Why are we still fighting? So little understanding. Why we see so much problems when there are none? ” So i find myself in a scenarios where i do terrible things to humanity, just beacause i want all the ”problems” gone with humans along, and all i just want is peace to myself and everybody and to be  grateful that i am still alive and that i am healty.

    I do not want any harm to other people, but i realize that there are moments when i meditate and i reach plains of peace and joy for a few minutes and after that or in the other days i get stuck in negativism which i get from other people (eg: work,home,school, internet) and i respond to that low vibrations.

    I want you too understand when i am in that state of unconsciousness which i let my ego to drive me to thoughts of destruction, i still find people that i love much, people i want to be protected. When i come back to a relaxed state ( after sleep, meditation, or praying) i realize that i do not want to harm anyone, not even a fly. I am a very happy person in general and i get stuck sometimes, but i never had a scenario where i am a very destructive power. I do not feel terrible of this thoughts, i understand them and i know that are not good at all. I am thinking this is happening beacause i reach some states of happiness, and the subconscious tryies to send me to a scale of low vibrations. I do not really know for sure yet.

     

    Thank you very much for response again. It hepled me alot to grow.

     

    Homi

     

    July 4, 2017 at 1:30 pm #156378
    Homi
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    Correction : In the PS, i do not meant that to a person, and I do not want me to sound like a really monster. The only thing i want to do is to share this situation and to find a clue, when  i do not find myself in meditation and praying .

     

    Thank you!

    July 4, 2017 at 1:09 pm #156376
    Homi
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    Hello ! Namaste !

    Before read this, i want you to know that you should choose if what i write is the truth or not for you.

    I once heard or read that life does not suposed to have a meaning. Life is Life. It does not have a meaning and it should not have any. Our all existence of humanity is just a breath compared to the existence o this planet (more like a cold actually). We are all humans alike so our mind is identifing with everything and everyone, that is one reason why we are suffering and not living life peacefully and in a simple lifestyle. We love suffering. It is almost an unbreakable habit. We are not doing this consciously. We identify ourselves with our mind, so the mind is in control, so we call that ego, that activates the pain-body. We identify ourselves with our stories, does not matters if those are happy or sad, because are illusions. Why? beacause those are in the past. The past is in the past. The past does not really comes back in the same way it was. The past is dead. It should not influence us, but it does. Why? We give power to it. The past is an illusion , so is the future because is a reflexion of the past. This is happening to us alot. The mind is created by our thoughts. One reason why we are suffering is because we let those thoughts came without seeing the true form of them and the emotions that is created by them (desire and fear).

    I do not want to make you understand that the mind is the enemy. Is the friend, if we understand it and use it wisely. The mind is like a tool to create things, but do not identify with it (anylonger).

    Learn from nature. Look at the caterpillar. That being eats leaves (or a part of a plant). She dies and after that is transforming in a butterfly. That being pollinate the same plant that was hurting before.

    I am saying that the life has no purpose and no meaning and should not have any that our mind wants to have. I am saying that the life just has to be.

    Here comes the important message that i think it sholud be recieved:

    1. Even if life has a meaning or has no meaning we should be happy, realistic, peacefull, relaxed, detached from harsh situations and do not give to much atention to our thoughts.

    1. Even if there is a heaven and a hell, or 7 heavens or 7 hells, or 10000 reincarnations, or nothing (emptiness- which my ego prefers)… even so, lets be happy, be totally in the present moment, live, laugh, dance, sing, paint, do what we like. If we cannot do this now… does not matter.. no problem. What cand we do when we don not know what to do? … Return to the beginning. What is in the beginning? What do we do when we are born? We cry !!! Why? We meet a new world…. We meet a new essence… the air. So we breathe.

    1. All we have to do is breathe. Feel that. Listen to it. Smell it. Taste it. Hear it. Practice this and see what happens.

    1.Choose! Try always to be present in choosing to be happy or sad and be totally to that emotions to understand if there is the response of the unvierse to the message that you sent, if there any.

    I hope you are feelling well recieving this. I learned alot after i read and watched mistical people like Osho, Tolle, Mooji, Sadhduru,Papaji and others.

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