Unfortunately I don’t really know if I have ever known who I truly am. I have always seen myself as the outcast and unworthy person others have seen me as.

My parents that is hard to explain. My father left when I was a baby my mother says he was abussive and what little attention he did show me growing up was not attention a father should be showing his daughter ever. My mother ignored it and ignored my repeated cries for help. She got remarried when I was 8 and again my stepfather showed me attention no man should show a daughter or a child for that matter and again my mother turned a blind eye to it all. Even when I tried to end my life and was institutionalized in therapy I was forced to talk about it all and her response was blaming me.

I truely believe my parents shaped my warped perception of who I am and my worth which directly affects my relationships and trust. But then on the other side of that I should be able to overcome people have so much more devastating things happening in Their lives and they overcome. They are at peace with themselves their situation and life.