Hi Jessica,
I can relate to everything you are saying. Just recently my Dad was diagnosed with a late stage of lung cancer.
It seems like every second of the the day it is all I can think about. And I keep thinking negative thoughts.
I’m trying to stay positive but it’s really hard and I find I’m playing this tennis match in my head of good and bad thoughts.
I too would love some help to just stay positive and see the good in situations.