I agree!!!!!!!! In this world we all have anxiety about one thing or another or several things. But i believe that there are always ways to cope and lessen that panic we may feel. The coping is the thing that we should concentrate on more. It is great that you have an awareness of what you are feeling and how your thoughts and actions can impact your attitude/ emotional state. I think its a normal thing especially growing up in a world that filled with things that are out of our control. There is a pressure in adulthood that is not discussed and this physode that others around us have it all under control.And they dont no one has all the answers but we can identify better healthier coping skills and remedy some of what stresses us.

It seems as though you are at the first step in a good place where you can continue to identify what you want, where you want to be emotionally and yes positive thoughts that change it all. But not over night either( to echo the above comments) Forgiving yourself is key! You arent alone! You are human and if you didn’t care you wouldn’t have the potential to change and grow past the place you are in now!!!! You are a carer thats amazing we need more people like that but maybe you dont have to be a worrier.

Personal disclosure: I had my first anxiety attack at at 26 years old. I am a social service provider and life is harder than people make it seem. We take on alot daily. Its going to spill out sometimes. But it also was a wake up call to realize that im fragile and human and have shortcoming, deadlines i wont meet sometimes, things i cant control and it helped me realize its ok! And im telling you its ok!!!!! You will find your way. It already seems like you aren’t letting anxiety stop you!
when I feel overwhelmed i learned to have my go to calm things i enjoy to relax and in the situation where i feel like im losing it and my hearts beating fast. i say ” I am alive, I am not in any Immediate danger Im ok”. And it helps me fight off some of the fear and realize im safe and pulls me back down to a grounded space. Hope this helps.