Hi Heather!
I totally understand how you feel..Am doing my Master’s and planning to enrol in a Grad school soon. From What I know Grad school can be very stressful, so You are not alone and nor are you solely responsible for the state you are in. Try not to get caught in a vicious self pity cycle. I know, I’ve been there. I got an opportunity to do my internship in a wonderful place, Unfortunately my anxiety got the better of me and I didn’t do my best. Just Let go..It’s okay if you can’t do well sometimes. Am sure you will find the strength to work soon. I’ve always found and So will you. Accept yourself wholly. Take it slow and easy. One thing at a time..You could get your work done that way. You could try meditation or therapy. I’ve found solace in Zen Buddhism. I forgot the source of this quote” Remember there is nowhere to go, nothing to do and nothing to achieve so stay in the present moment”
I hope you are back to being fully functional soon but no hurries! You will get there.
Love,
Sridevi K