I have been living with victim mentality for so long that I do not seem to be able to be in a relationship without expecting the worst. I am fearful to try new things. I am working my way through a self esteem building book. Tiny Buddha has been my inspiration to succeed at living my life again. I am in a relationship again and I really want it to work. I would appreciate any helpful ideas to get control of my emotions instead of my emotions being in control of me.