Thank you for your reply, Hee.

It does make sense as I understand humans often eel the same things yet no one expresses them. Another reason Im so turned away.
I think this started happening after my boyfriend and I started having problems. He was always saying my lifestyle was low class and not good enough for him (keep in mind I graduated high school, college, got a job, and am continuing school when it starts again) But since I smoke and live with my parents (I just turned 20), he didnt think I was ‘grown up’ or was going anywhere in life.

When we had a talk and I told him that when I first moved here I was raped he got very upset because I wasnt ‘clean’ to him anymore. Even though he had known Id been with two people he didnt realize it was recently. So…pretty much he just made me realize how sleazy and oblivious men can be (women can do it to) but thats basically what made me lose my interest in interacting and trusting other people.

I hope your situation starts to look up, Hee. I know it can be hard :/