Hello Selkie, and thank you for your reply. My ex did treat me well at some point but when things changed we just went our own ways, he was never aggressive toward me. There was a bit of jealousy in our relationship but we were young and I’ve realized it was wrong. My current boyfriend is usually open minded about me having guy friends but he told me there was no point me seeing my ex as he’s only an ex and he’s nothing to me now, he told me I don’t have my priorities straight. I do love my boyfriend and he treats me so nice like no one ever has, he knows me inside out and looks after me well, I don’t think I’d find this with anyone again, but when he gets angry, his actions toward me hurt. He acts really cold and pushes me away but he is not a bad person… he is not controlling and would never stop me from doing what I want, but he will definitely express his emotions after. My ex and my boyfriend both made me feel good in different ways, I don’t know how to compare that. I don’t want to be with my ex at the moment, I am happy right now but I won’t say I would never consider it in the future if things turn out differently, but I do still want him in my life… I don’t know how as I can’t see him again, as my boyfriend would not forgive me and I know it is wrong but even texting or a phone call sometime would be fine for me. I honestly don’t know. I am not even sure if I should tell my ex how I’m feeling, I don’t know what is right and wrong anymore either. I really do appreciate any advice as I have nobody to talk to about this.