I have been a relationship where I have caused my ex a lot of pain!! I continuously hurt him over and over again and he kept putting up with me. I love him and I care about him but he was so overly attached to me it got really annoying. I broke up with him a month ago but then we started back talking… when we did he considere us to be in a relationship again.. however things were not the same, he was not the same person who was overly attach to me and who was so deeply in love with me.. instead now it’s like I have to make contact with him and he claims he is frustrated with me because I am going to school and will be finished with my dgree soon and he has not started college yet neither is he working. I pressure him a lot because I keep feeling like things are not the same but he tells me I am blowing things out of proportion and he is still in love with me and loves me and that I am his heart his soul his everything although the relationship got pretty bad where I treated him awful but I hate this feeling of how different he is acting. he calls and still texts but it is not the same.. before when I used to break up with him he used to be the one chasing me all the time to get back with me and now I am the one crying trying to get things back to how it was and wanting him to forgive me. he brings up things that I did to him in the past that still hurt him and he says that sometimes he feel like he want to be alone because I continuously hurt him and its frustrating him how I keep talkin about the relationship and how things are now. I feel like I really want to let it go for good because I am not sure where his heart is right now and I don’t want to become more hurt than I already am because I hate how things have changed and how he is not as overly attached to me as before. he even went to far as to say if we break up I would miss him more than he will miss me… is it because of all the bad things I did him? I don’t know if to still hold onto this… its like we are together but not completely together.. it is stressful and sad to deal with this and I feel as though we break up for good I will feel less pain tht im feeling now. Does he have all right to treat me like this? Or should I just let this relationship go and when he feels like he trusts me again he would talk to me and pursue me again if it was to be? Please give me some advice.. anyone who have been in a similar situation.. I cry so much because I feel so much guilt and regret for what I have done. I eep trying to show him that I have changed and it makes him want to try but then he gets into that angry mood again where he would not talk to me and tell me that I am not a trustworthy person. what should I do? do I need to prove myself to him? or leave the situation alone? I feel like we still both love each other but the past has been so bad its hard to be how we once were.