Hi,
Thank you for being so open and vulnerable about how you are feeling. That takes a lot of courage so I commend you for that.
I’m sorry to hear that you are feeling so alone. There are a few thoughts that came to my mind after reading your post.
I hope something might help.
1. It sounds like at this point in your life, it’s a little hard to find meaning in your daily life. I wonder if this is a good opportunity to look within for a while and figure out what you might want from life from this point forward. It sounds like you’re life has been pretty busy for a lot of your life with raising kids and work and maybe you haven’t had time to sort out these important questions for yourself.
It might be a good time to explore through reflection, reading, and maybe joining groups?
2. It seems like a major part of feeling lonely is the lack of meaningful communication with your husband.
I wonder if some couples counselling or taking time aside to be together might help?
All the best,
Yoona