All of you very kind and your supportive words are valued. I know it will take time to trust again and I must be gentle with myself. I am very sad and I so desperately want to reach out to him and soothe his worries about our relationship. I know having those thoughts are ridiculous, but I can’t just turn off my feelings for him.

I completely agree with Mishy that closure will likely occur from within myself, and not via a formal good-bye with him.

I’m still very much in the hurting stage. Right now, eating properly, getting enough rest, keeping active and surrounding myself with friends and family are my priorities. I’m very sad.