Well, it’s been a tough day. It’s becoming very real that I’m never hearing from him again. My heart is broken and my self-esteem is destroyed. I know I should be exercising or doing yoga, but I’m having a difficult time getting off the couch. I keep imagining that he’s happily going on with his life as though I never existed. Perhaps he’s pleased that he made such a ‘clean’ break from me after 2 years of being together.

I want to contact him one last time, but I restrain myself because of the great likelihood that I’ll be ignored (rejected) again. I’m pretty sure my fragile self can’t take any more abuse.