Dear Ravi:

Regarding your angry thoughts about Jerry when thinking about her contacting you again. I wonder if this anger is fueled by the message you received from your grandmother and mother that if you have a conflict with another person, it is always the other person’s fault (except if the other person is your grandmother or mother). When the boy in school wanted his coin back, I think it was your grandmother who said something like she wished that boy will die with his coin. That is quite extreme. Her message in that comment is that it is a great sin to displease Ravi and the person who displeases Ravi deserves to die… And there were other examples you mentioned, with the same message: other people are your worst enemies if there is any displeasure or potential displeasure or loss on your part.. so these strong messages at a young age created this extreme anger. I think this is where it is coming from. If so, this kind of insight can start you on the path of healing from this insanity (these were insane teachings and messages from the two women). What do you think?

anita