I understand where you’re coming from, Anita. It indeed is true and a very basic fact of life. Pain, both physical and emotional, are a very real fact of life and something that even the most wealthy and fortunate person on the planet cannot escape. It happens sooner or later and dealing with it is a skill. I did deal with at least some of it in the past, but I never was so overwhelmed, so depressed and almost suicidal as now. Not only is the sadness of separation and guilt overwhelming for me, but I’m supposed to study hard and clear one of the toughest exams in the country in this condition. I can hardly remember being in any harder situation.

Right now in the morning, my parents give me the fresh news that from next year, the said exam may be introducing some new rules which would make me ineligible to take it anymore. Means I have to clear it this time, or never. I’m feeling like my head might explode soon.