Hello Anita,

Thank you so much for responding. I understand what you are saying by it wasn’t over. I have been told this many times and I do understand that anything is possible and that anything can happen.

I am a very funny person when it comes to speaking or writing. I try my best to choose my words wisely, not to mention I try to think how I would feel if I were the one reading them. I have always been cautious of others feelings, at times more than my own.

To answer your questions:

I have been told I think to much and I have been called mentally unstable because of it. I understand things can be over thought. One thing life has taught me is that many don’t think enough and speak or write hastily. I expressed my feelings of thought to another person and that was one of the responses I received.

I have been cheated on in my past. I expressed after time with being with a person what took place, how it took place and what it did to me. One person I was with for 2 years I caught cheating on me and I went so far as to send her a picture of her car in his parking lot. I explained how in my relations before her which lasted 8 years how I finally caught her. After being with her for 8 years I tried to move past it. I am not one to quit so easily.
After I had sent the picture, got in to an argument etc she turned around and said. You must have really loved her because you caught her and gave her a chance. I was not alone with the person who you saw my car by but you won’t give me a chance… Long story short.. I did and it failed

There are many other examples I could give but I’m feeling a bit strange airing out my laundry out here. Perhaps in time I won’t feel as such but for now I hope you understand. It’s not only feelings but it is my words as well.

As far as retail is concerned… 20 years in management is a long time, especially in retail. I enjoyed my co workers below me. I was the one they always came to with any issues or problems. I guess in many ways it was because of them I lasted as long as I did.

I am glad to be out of it to be honest with you. I have grown very tired of trying to do the jobs of 10 people with 4 people and constantly be asked or expected to send one of the four home. I won’t pull the soap box out any more than that =)

Hope that answers the questions for you. I’m happy to be out of retail but I don’t have much else to fall back on to. I grew up in a inner city where a high school diploma was the dream… If you made it to college well you could own the world.

Unfortunately I do not have either. It has never been a problem but now things have changed so much. Lol there isn’t even a paper application any more these days like it was when we were growing up. Everything has become so faceless now. The other thing life has taught me is that a majority of the time it’s not what you know but who you know.

As far as your fear is concerned Anita. If you wish to converse I am here. It doesn’t have to be your feelings or demons if you will.