Myotherme,

First off, you NEVER deserve to be treated poorly. Don’t let yourself believe that. You are worthy of love and respect, everyone is. Be kind to yourself, recognize your worth. You will find it is easier to love others once you can do that.

I have been in the position where I’ve felt like suicide is the right choice. The truth is, it isn’t. You can cater your lifestyle to your own needs and desires. This website has helped me a bunch in realizing that.

Another thing, you are NOT alone. Seek the help of others. Whether thats a trusted friend, a family member, a coworker, a psychiatrist. You don’t have to tackle your problems alone and keep them repressed even if it seems terrifying. The more you repress a problem, the more it will push back at you and overwhelm you. Writing on this blog is a huge step in the right direction.

“Respect yourself enough to let go of anything that no longer serves you, grows you, or makes you happy”
Once you respect yourself, breathe deep before you speak or act out, and try to make changes in a positive direction, I think you are going to be okay my friend.