I know. I guess she knows that in some way too, but now that she knows I have feelings, she is no longer comfortable talking to me. This plus that fight we had… a double issue now. My friends say I should give her time to recover from this and wait patiently for her to be ready to talk again. If I send her something, she may not reply at all, reply with just a curt “thanks” or even my worst fear, tell me directly or indirectly to stay away from her life and never contact her again (her usual way of telling me to be away is “your studies are more important, go and study and forget me”. She kept saying that last month… one reason I’ve started to hate studies). I am afraid my inner demon might again interpret her words forcefully as offensive and the hell breaks loose again. Even now it tells me, “why are you so worried? She must’ve forgotten you and must be happy with her brother and others. You’re a loser and not good enough for her.” I’m tired of this internal dialogue.