Yes, I can relate to that. I’m so attached and the same time I am afraid that he will reject me. I feel safe at the same time I feel unsafe.

Hence, when I come back from the session, sometimes I do Rick Hanson guided meditations – feeling safe (he starts by saying that imagine we are safe, we have enough oxygen etc), feeling cared about etc..

When I have that hollow feeling, all i want at that time is someone to hug me and say I am ok..you are good, you are not a bad person.
I feel so helpless and hopeless at that time. I have a very strong feeling at that time that people will reject me if they get to know me.

In that hollow feeling, I feel like noone will love me, i’m all alone..I feel so disconnected from the world.. I guess that’s why
sometimes I want my therapist so bad as I feel like if I have him all the time, he will protect me as he does give me some safety.