What I wrote in the last post to you: “And since nothing is permanent, no one can disprove an assertion you can make that indeed you and her cannot be separated permanently.” was not thought out. I didn’t think it out. I don’t believe that if something cannot be disproved it may exist. I misspoke.

Today is the one month anniversary of that argument. Not a pleasant anniversary, is it… As I wrote to you before, in other words, maybe, I don’t want to encourage you to think about her and exhaust yourself emotionally with such thinking and ruminating and obsessing. Not that I have power over you on these matters, but I don’t want on my end to encourage such.

Your last sentence, I like that. “Qualifying this exam and striving for freedom”- yes! This is doable. This is worthy of your thinking and emotional investment because this is something you can do something about: qualify, study, eventually get a job, make some money, be an independent man. Independent, self sufficient, and free.

anita