Again Anita,

I can not argue about that at all, where was his heart!

I cannot think before or after this phrase, where was his heart, and I have to add on it where was my mom?

I guess I have to watch closer when presenting my logic to you, you seem like someone who has great values and built sustainable logic to.handle them.

I have to apologize again for devaluating your knowledge, and you defiantly have the experince to aid it.

And from your last answer, came a question I had been Longing for an answer, and the answer is it is all about the looks of others to you, you care more for the prospective of outsiders to you, than the prospective of your family to you.
And he had been regretting it since!

I would like to congratulate you of your five years of healing, and we need you to keep going 🙂

The problem with anxiety and stress is that they tend to increase each time you try to hide them, and this is what usually gets me each time, the concentration and focus is a reflection of your mind state, they tend to need mind space.
I guess when I used to listen to music when I study, it was like a stress relief mechanism that helped me concentrate and focus more, but also it tends to fireback!

I never freed him from his responsibility, but how can you get closure, is it just black or white, is it either you cut any connection with him or he voluntary acknowledging his doing? I think I can not do the first nor he can do the last!

And I can add that he caried the responsibility of damaging my soul and that I let others abuse me! And when he relised that he hated both of us, I was the living proof of his abuse, the living proof that his abuse brought more abuse, a kind that he felt ashamed of, and that’s why he hated me at a moment, the desire, the need for coping and forgetting was too strong for him to handle, and the desire to forget the unforgettable and just buy adding some anger to it, it changed to hate.

You see, am hardheaded, am not convinced until I realize and study the facts, otherwise it just won’t!

Ok, it’s your time 😉

Cya,