Dear Anita,

You are most welcome,

I was just reflecting the fact you cam across that my dad in realtionship with others was a good man, and was not always that good with me, and I have thought about it a lot,if you can be a good person with others, why cannot he be a good person with us as a family. I was brought up with that fact that my mom did not get divorced from him because of us, that’s how she put it, a cultural taboo, that the women have to screfice her life for the sake of her children, which was the worst environment to raise children. A taboo, that a women who has doughters can not get divorced for the sake of her doughters, who would get married to a girl with a divorced mom. Tabooooooos.

He is now another man, not the man he used to be, his body had failed him, he spends most of the day sleeping, goes for his physiotherapy, he is like a kid, who is scared that his mother is going to leve him, he cannot even remember to take his medications, he looks like a man who has regrets, lots of regrets, using his sickness for attention, it’s sad to look at him, a new feeling to add to the strength, anger and agony he used to resemble to me, he is living in fear of his actions, and reliving them each day. Some days I cannot even look at him, other day we just do with good morning and goodnight. Anyway I was not getting out of my room much till recently, this morning he looked very sad, I just could not pass by him with out saying something, so I told him joking, are you sad coz your football team lost, I also love in fear, the fear that becoming him one day!

I cannot understand how you came up with the fact that am living with him, and about me being financially dependent on him, but it is much more complicated than that. i don’t even wanna go through it.

I have just relised when I had a minute walk downstairs that my first priority should be moving out, gaining my independency. At least I still have my car, and it is something I can lean on if needed. I need to get a job, but am not ready, I have a job offer here in my city, I have an offer from a friend to move with him in another city. The options are there, and I have did it before and I can dos it again, but am not ready.

I prefer the idea of moving to another city, it would be a good execuse to just move out with out making a fuss.

Thank you for your time and effort!

Cya,