I lost my mother when I was very young. My older sister took on quite a lot of the responsibility of looking after my brother and I, thus our relationships are fairly complicated but I think she is finally letting go of that burden. Regarding my father, I think he’s never felt like he had proper support since the death of my mother. My mother’s family imposed themseleves and what they thought would be best for us although they themselves did not know what was best for them.

I know I am quite similar to my mother and so is the rest of my family as we are very independent, some people say we are “free”. I guess what I took on from my mother is my caring trait and my frankness. I have very few memories of her but those reflect her caring character, for other people and animals.

My father’s girlfriend it seems, has never been happy and she already has a history of finding partners that would be “responsible” for her. My father is quite devoted to her so it has taken him a long time to realise the relationship was just one-way. I genuinely have try to like his girlfriend but felt from the beginning it was dragging my father down rather than pushing him up. That again, I am not the only to see. And I want him to be happy so did not want to spit on the relationship. Whatsoever I know he’ll never find someone like my mother but I know he can find someone who will correspond to him.
It just seems sometimes that I am so sensitive that I understand really well people’s behaviours, therefore when I talk with my father, he realizes things in people that I’ve known forever. That is why it is quite hard to find someone who can emotionally support me as I barely know anyone who’s got similar acute emotional senses. And it is hard for other people to understand my sensitivity, but I do not blame them for that.