One last thought,
I do realize that blaming myself so many times and thus staying unhappy and unsatisfied has created the habit of me thinking I may always be sad/ unsatisfied. It is hard to differentiate the fact that I have to look after myself and sometimes I may be victimizing myself, as I used to think I was a victim for very long. I think it is one of the reasons my depression and anxiety came about, because I was in need of change, and so were the people around me. In need of respecting myself, and in need of honesty and strength to keep on moving, Life is all about change. I have decided concretely since last year, that pushing myself out of my comfort zone would be my “comfort zone”.

One thing I find so hard though, is that I have always wanted to make others happy (to some extent I wanted people to do the same for me), rather help them to BE happy I must say. I obviously cannot change anyone. What is hard and sad is that many people will stay in their comfort zone, but will not accept change and will never really want to be happy. What is hard is that sometimes I feel helpless about that, I used to say I found it unfair. But as my friend put it well, I am not mother Theresa, even more so, I am not God and am not all-mighty. It’s hard though to ignore it when people are making fake problems as I used to think I owed to help everyone. I do not know if it makes much sense or really resonates with the previous posts. But those things I have just described are so important to me.