Dear Anita,

You Just made me have the first laugh in my day, i was still in bed, your care for me, you worrying about me, being too excited, but i can tell how much excited I am, I spent yesterday working out fro three hours, I ran for 5.12 miles while my target was only 4 miles, I worked an extra one hour doing stretches, squats, push-ups, and many other exercises I do not know no the name of, but i do know the effect of, and meditated for 5 min, how was i able to that, when I exercised the day before day and night, I ran the day before 3 miles in the morning, and played football, and basketball for 2 hours in the morning. Yesterday morning I told my self you do not have to work out this morning, you can just rest for today, and if you feel energetic you can exerciser in the night, and then i opened Facebook, and i saw the picture of the women, a handicapped women on a wheel chair, with one of the most real smiles on her face i have ever seen, it was not one of the posts that some one would share because he was feeling pity, she was a real women with a real name, and we had common friends between us, and i could not resist of sending her this message, (hi Rania, My name is Ziad Saad Eldin, and I came across a photo of yours on Facebook, my be just because we have friends in common, and for them I feel the gratitude to have seen your smile, it is such a power giving smile, I would like to meet you someday so we can share stories, your smile just empowered me to continue my life the way I see it, to stop doubting my self, you are such an amazing person, I hope all the best for you. Please forgive me for being blunt here, I just could not resist the good temptation. Ziad,)
and i just went for that run, i was limping after the first 2 miles, but i told my self, you still have one good leg, you better limp running than limp walking, and only by making my self vulnerable to myself and that other boy who was running the track, telling him aren’t you gonna run any more and asking him to join me, i could not have ran that extra 1.12 miles, i could not have worked-out that extra hour which was actually harder than running!
i have started running 2 weeks ago, and i had only one day of rest, but i would not rest any more, actually i have decided to work out day and night, running days by myself and working out nights with my friends, In the Gym, playing football or basket ball, and by the way am a good goalkeeper and a decent midfielder 🙂
what made me laugh is i could not have imagined myself and the anger within me without all that working out, I run to release anger, and focus my mind, any thing else i consider a side effect!

i really appreciate your care, but do not worry, it is just like running, as i told my adviser before when she was worried about me, when she considered i was having a manic episode, and my reply to her was very simple, it might be a manic episode, and i can just use it to get benefits out of, and try not to do something I will regret, you see i have experience with manic episodes. when you are running, and you feel your leg hurting, lactating, you stop to do some stretches and continue running after your leg is feeling better, when you feel you cannot catch you breath you slow down, when you feel you need a rest you do it, you do rest, but you have to start again, stand up again, and walk again, and run again, better than before. i have ran more than 41 miles since i have started, i can not believe it too, but that is what the app is saying, the Nike runner app.

I was not speaking about a book, i was speaking about an article, :), may be a three pages article, but i have never thought of writing a book before, but you make it so reasonable, the amount of writing i have did the last month, can make more than one book!

Cya, Ziad,