Thanks Hippiechick,

I used to have that notion at least… and didn’t compare myself (that much 🙂 ) it’s just like these days it just I am so down and just have no engergy, which scares me – because I don’t recognise myself. This is not me or at least wasn’t. I just needed to get it out! and you are right, the internship will end only two years and a month to go 🙂 It just feels like forever…

Inky, the prob is not that I am not married… The prob is that I feel like I am surrounded by people that have their lives togheter, and have figured it out – while I remain… how do I say this: it just feels like I keep going backwards instead of forward. Seriously, being married and having children is the least of my worries now.

I just want to feel like I started my life and not allways having to be in survival mode.

But I guess it’s just a phase that we all have to go through 🙂 Knowing it and having to go through it are so two different things.

Thanks to both of you. I guess I just needed to get it out… It will end one day 🙂 I’m just tired of having to remind myself every day, which sometimes makes me wonder if it really will end and then I get frustrated like I did today 🙂

But like you both said THERE IS LIGHT, just hope that I will be patient enough to make it to the end of the tunnel!

THX!