Hi Anita!

I have not been in contact with her since my last post. We live about 3 hours apart. Every few days she will text me and ask what my plans are for job searching. I have been out of my toxic job for about 2 months and planned on self publishing sooner than this but my anxiety is holding me back from finishing that too. I mentioned this plan before to her and she told me I could keep dreaming and that no one gets published.. ignoring pretty much what I told her. I told her if I need money sooner I will apply for some part time jobs. But I ignore her on these texts because I have no updates and don’t wish to talk to her. She won’t be supportive and will probably start yelling at me about being delusional as she has with other dreams I’ve had.
I guess it makes it hard to let go of wanting to make her happy. The same could be said with this friend. I am not one to cut off friendships because usually it is other people doing it to me. Then she just mentioned she was thinking about me the other day and wanted to catch up. I agree that she will probably not change and I shouldn’t try to get the friendship back. I wouldn’t solely take my boyfriends advice but it is important to me. From what I heard through coworkers she used to have feelings for him, and she has mentioned before that she could see herself with a woman too so I am very wary of putting my relationship at risk by her actions.
I spent a lot of time with her when I was miserable in my marriage but things are different now. I guess the right thing is to seek other friendships and other ways to cope.

Thank you,
Gigi