That’s true. Regarding that void, I have no choice but to push it back for now because as long as it’s there, there’s no way I can study. I had sat down with the full intention to finish a couple of chapters last night, and the pain got so overwhelming that I couldn’t continue past 10-15 minutes. Maybe I am a fool for hoping she’ll somehow realize the truth and decide to reunite, though I can’t help it. I just have no interest left in my life which is full of nothing but pain and misery now. I’m studying for that exam not out of any sincere passion anymore, but because there’s nothing better to distract myself with. I just keep hoping I don’t wake up alive the next morning. I realized that nobody here who claimed to love and care for me actually does so. Just my parents who are praying everyday that my personal problem gets solved, though I didn’t tell them details.