You are right Anita. I’m not the one to run from the truth… but the truth is I myself don’t know the future. Nobody does. My mind says I have lost her forever and she’ll never come back. My heart genuinely does say she still has that love and care in some corner of her heart, and one day it may help her come back. Though I won’t be messaging her anymore, unless I am fortunate to make the birthday thread for her. After this conversation with her sister, I accepted that I lost her. But for once I do feel my heart is not clutching at straws, but genuinely feels what it says. I do know that I may lose her, but she’ll never lose me because I love her, no matter what she thinks about me. I’ll always pray for her well-being and if she ever needs me, I’ll be there. It may not lessen my pain, but I leave the rest to the higher powers because I believe in my love and hers too.