Hi Anita,

Yes online dating is one way I should look at. I guess it will be best to note these attributes in my profile as what I am looking for.

There is something else I want to mention. Last night I had a dream.I dreamt there was a guy whom I liked and who was also reciprocating that feeling. I cannot recall the face/who that person was. But my ex and his mother came over to our house with him. I don’t recall the exact conversations but I said something about them hurting me. And his mother spoke up and said that I was having a cancer which is why they didn’t like to go ahead with the marriage. At this point I got very angry and told about what actually happened. I felt that they were trying to justify why they abandoned me. In the dream this made me very angry and I felt better after I told what actually took place long ago.

Maybe I am thinking a lot about this. However it has been very healing to write here and the responses from you and the others helped me to iron out my wrongful thinking