hey:) been working nights, did not have time to answer:) well recently I feel like I’m learning, starting to see slowly what I did wrong in this relationship (which I actually did wrong last time too), i didn’t learn from that obviously. I think I did all things same – gave too much, wanted to please my partner, not exactly myself, doing everything to make him happy. I’m like this in normal life too, i give all myself just to see people around happy. friends, family, patients… so i actually think it’s hard for me to focus on my needs and love myself. and that is probably reason why I’m insecure and why I’m such crappy in being single… And mpre or less i can see that the way he treated me is not his fault, but i deserve somebody who wants to be with me and give me what I’m willing to give him. Which is good. But it’s still bitter sweet. I miss him. his smile, proximity, the way he treated me when all was right. nobody ever did.
and i still don’t know how will this affect my future, still can’t proceed loosing that future fantasy.
Kate