Dear rainbowmystica:

Significant, ongoing fear (anxiety) creates havoc in all kinds of ways, partially releasing itself via all kinds of symptoms. My first symptoms of anxiety were those fitting the Tourette Syndrome and Obsessive Compulsive Disorder diagnoses at age 5 or 6.

You can and will heal, as I have and am continuing to heal, once you are living away from your mother, in a group home or a small apartment financed by your father, and whilebattending therapy with a competent, empathetic therapist.

These symptoms you experience will weaken over time, and new energy will be available for you, energy to be you, to create and to love and be loved by a loving future partner. This energy is now blocked by anger; suffocated by self denial, that hiding of the real you, your true feelings.

It will take time and patience, but it can and will be done. Take the right steps, take care of your living situation, talk to your therapist Tuesday about your mother. And don’t give up on healing no matter how long it takes. Be patient. Post anytime.

anita