Dear ican2:

You asked why you are desperate for someone to love you while some others are not desperate. My answer is: some others are already loved and you are not. There are others that have the loving support they need to not feel desperately alone. They have someone that likes them, shows empathy to them, tells them they are okay; that it is okay to feel what they feel, to think what they think. That gives them that okay feeling that makes them calm.

On the other hands, other people (lots of people, really) don’t have that so they don’t feel okay. Without that okay they cannot be calm. So they are desperate for that I-am-okay feeling and … desperately yearn for it, long for it, daydream about it, imagine it at any turn, hope for it and can’t be quiet, calm until they find it.

Did I answer your question? let me know.

anita