hi all.
An update on my sad and sorry situation. A few days ago i caught my husband reading my phone. it came out that he has known about my affair for months. He set a thumbprint on my phone and has been tracking the whole thing whilst collecting evidence.
He is shocked and devastated (even though he has been sat on this for months) i have moved to my mothers. he says he can never trust me again. I cannot believe he has known for months and not said a word. he has been so pleasant and kind and nice to me- it makes no sense when he knew the whole time.
seeing his pain was unbearable. sobbing and wailing like an animal. i begged and pleaded forgiveness. i said that the whole situation has been awful and we have both made mistakes that led to this sorry state of affairs. My gut feeling was to plead and beg him to forgive me and for a fresh start even though i still have questions about last year and why he kept trying to leave me.
i dont know if fear is driving me or whether i want to make it work.
The other man wants to be with me and for us somehow to have a future but i am so lost and confused and hate myself for the pain i have caused. i would sooner die than hurt my husband and can never ever forgive my deceit.

i am desperate and low and so so confused 🙁