Dear anita

I’m sorry I’m unable to explain it. I’m also confused about what all happened and what all went wrong. I’m also confused why Mr.D is so powerful in her life. I regret that I allowed him to cross the boundaries and threaten me with those calls. What was I thinking.

But those are the things which have already happened, and I’ve spent a lot of time and energy thinking and analyzing it.
Some days, when I am totally angry about the situation and I foresee myself happy without her in my life. Who needs a person who changes so quickly to forget three years of relationship. So those days, I am perfectly cool and normal.

But sometimes I get these emotional attacks and I start missing her badly. All the good things come to surface and I keep on missing those moments. I had planned a lot of things for her when she was going to return. But all went fail. These regrets just keep circling in my mind.

Too many regrets just keep circling me and destroy my mood. Now, the thing is, I need to move on somehow. At least I need to figure out how I should regain my confidence. Any wise words on that? Any initial steps to love myself more and feel great about myself?

I read this thread few mins ago.

Oops I did it again = )

To quote his last lines,

I just feel like it’s not one thing that’s causing me to feel “hopeless”, but the culmination of everything that’s going on around. I wish I was one of the people who just didn’t give a f%ck and just chilled about everything. I am not. I take everything close to heart and I feel so alone and don’t know what to do

Thats exactly what I feel from deep inside. This world is a brutal place. Cant help it. I just need to move on and be the person who really knows who to trust and not to give a f**k about someone.

Any help on loving myself more? Coz, if I do that, I’ll be back making new dreams and chasing them.

ps: its slsjay and not sisjay 🙂