Hey girl!!

I created an account just to be able to reply to this. What I want to say most is, I FEEL you, sister. I am currently involved with someone who has way to much power over me for my liking. I truly understand what it’s like to see things so clearly and objectively, and still be drawn in again and again like some sort of chemistry drug. As I am currently still in my situation and have not found the ‘end resolve’ just yet, I HAVE come to more acceptance for myself over this, and that has made a tremendous difference in the way I feel. The fact is, many people go through something like this- it’s part of life!! And it’s here to teach us so much. You are not singled out as a stupid or weak person for your tendencies to go back to him- that is NORMAL. I know you don’t like it, and you don’t have to, but I have found solace in just allowing myself not to be on my a-game for every arena of my life. I have found acceptance that this part of my life is kind of shitty, and it’s honestly adding much depth to my life experience by showing me what it’s like to have soul-quenching chemistry and to desire someone so badly as I do him. In a way, it’s rather a juicy experience!

I’ve been able to re-label it so it’s not something I feel so down on myself over, and that’s been the most helpful thing I’ve discovered in a place where my will power frankly isn’t a strong enough force at the moment. Maybe yours is now. Whatever happens, you will be OK, and I know this because you are a concious being! So I wish luck to the both of us.