Hi Anita,

Thank you so much for reading and responding.

You’re right, I need to find the peace in me.

To answer you question, I believe I tolerated him because:

1) I still had hope. I thought that maybe moving to Spain would eradicate his problems and he would be a better person.

2) We were living and working at the same place. The company I worked for put us up in accommodation and we happened to be put in the same house. And this house was right next to our work place. I was afraid of the consequences.

3) I also had feelings for him.

You are spot on about his troubled childhood and he often refers back to his childhood using it as an excuse for the way he is. Sometimes it feels like he’s feeling sorry for himself.