Dear Kadidja:

It is better for you if you no longer interact with Molly (the name of the friend you provided in a previous thread). Obviously it is better for you. How do I know? Because you wrote above:

“For a while now, I have been focusing more on myself and stop trying to compete to be number 1 in my best friends heart. Since then…I’ve been less stressed, controlled my anger and been having less paranoia thoughts.”

“a part of me wants to move forward in my life.”

“Since I’ve been taking care more of myself, there were a lot of things that I never knew that I enjoy doing.”

“Sometimes when I talk to her, I get this feeling that I want to leave. When I don’t speak with her for a while, I feel great.”

“When I focus on myself Ang my other friends, I feel more at peace. But with her, I feel distant and scared.”

How much more evidence do you need, to see that really, this relationship is not good for you?

You wrote that she is interested in you continuing this relationship, that when you distant yourself from her, she pulls you in. It is not for your own good to be pulled in; not for your best interest to interact with her at all. My strong recommendation, based on your own writings, is to end all contact with her.

anita