Hi Anita,

Thank you very much for your response. You’ve said some things I never thought about and it is very true. I guess I really want an explanation for everything but I suppose I have to accept the fact that I won’t get a logical explanation from him. It’s not possible.

As for the childhood, I think he was using his childhood for both as an excuse to him living his life so far in self defeating ways and as an excuse for his abusive behaviour. He also said that he’s had depression before. So to an extent, I think he may at times have seen it, but he never did anything to try an change it. I don’t know, I may be wrong. I think now, I have to accept the fact that I may never find an explanation for his behaviour and look forward. Only through that can I find peace in myself again.