Dear KBearBuddah,

Thank you so much for your kind words and I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve had a similar experience. I really hope you are fine now.

I had a look at Narcissistic Personality Disorder… there were times I suspected he was somewhat narcissistic but it was hard to tell, I don’t know why. I always thought narcissists were easy to see. With him, he was very different in front of other people than with me. He was charming in front of others; he always showed me affection, he was always helpful, and he always went out of his way to do things for others. But in private, it was very different and he definitely did shows a lot of traits of NPD. I dare say, he was a real pig! I could never make sense of it.

There are times when I miss him, and now there are times where I feel really angry, that he put me through all this and got away with it. I really want to tell him what he has put me through and make him understand what he has done, but I know that’s pointless. I’ve tried before but he does not understand. He won’t even listen.

Everyone is right when they say I need to let go of him and my feelings. I have to accept that there is no logic with this man and that I will never have a logical explanation.