I feel I can handle the jealousy. The anger, I pray I can. Though I’ve had a couple of temper incidents in the past month but it’s significantly lesser than before. I don’t know if what was can even be back now. The March incident is a point of no return. I just wish she understands that her present views about me are wrong, and so is her decision to sever ties. I wish we’re back on talking terms at least, however feeble. The rest we can deal with as things proceed.

Regarding her sister, the question isn’t how I will deal with her words… the question is how Jerry will. I imagine the moment she sees my message, she goes and shows it to her sister and the two of them do a deep analysis of it, making out evil meanings that were never there, and then either decide not to reply or send something cold and hostile. I don’t know how to make her understand that she’s fooling only herself by confirming her views with a young child.

I had drafted an overlong message addressing her sometime back, more to vent out my pain than anything else. I don’t know if she’ll even read it or delete it without reading, if I send it to her. Another possibility is sending a “if I ever meant anything at all to you, then reply and try to understand what I’m saying” message. If she does reply, which itself would be a miracle, I don’t feel it’ll be anything friendly or understanding. This is all making me feel unsure and hesitant.

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