Dear naturelover07:

I re-read your posts. I use the term “grew in” instead of grew up because interactions with my mother/ others were painful, so instead of reaching out, I reached in, folded into myself; instead of growing, I shrunk, emotionally. You used the verb “Stunt” – same thing, for me, meaning: not growing up, but folding in. Introverted.

You wrote: “children like ourselves didn’t get the validation and support that we deserved and so badly needed.” True. I (and you) not only didn’t get validation and support but I was attacked, repeatedly, by my mother, verbally, physically. No one helped.

I like your inner child technique, your mantra I Matter, and you doing yoga and meditation.

You wrote: ” i have so many answers but so much difficulty manifesting them”- this is why I thing therapy with a competent, caring therapist will do a lot for you. Intellectually understanding problems and solutions is not enough. There has to be a growing emotional understanding (takes work and extreme patience and gentleness with yourself) and there have to be skills used (such as meditation/ mindfulness).

You wrote: “my weak ego overrides all. Inferiority complex again maybe. It’s almost paranoia!!”- what do you mean by that? What is a “weak ego”, the specifics of your inferiority complex and the “almost paranoia”? If you’d like to share, please do.

anita