Dear Anita,

Today my mood is a bit worse than yesterday. I am so mad for myself. Why i cannot bear this? I don’t wanna eat or do anything but lying all day and crying. But i even get tired of crying. I cannot cry much as when i was new to love. I miss him, hate him and am mad for him a lot. He is now enjoying his holiday while i have to depress myself like this? Who knows he is with some girl now?
I just feel so hard to accept the truth. I used to date other men when i wanted to forget someone. I know it was rediculous but it worked. Should i use that way again?