I know it sounds strange, but you would seriously be amazed at the relationships I see out here. Have seen marriages at the courthouse between guys and women with serious issues. They aren’t flashy, see things like obvious meth-mouth, women who look like they have been rode hard and out away wet, women who when they talk sound like they drink a couple of litres of whiskey and smoke a half-dozen packs a day, women who are obvious prostitutes that the guy thinks he has changed, etc. Some times it looks like a backwoods hill-billy shotgun wedding. Around town you see similar.

Also, strangely enough, see the opposite despite this being a buyers market for women. For example: was at the local home improvement store a while back and observed the interaction of a couple. She was good looking, highly educated (have seen her at bar association meetings), and apparently had a good job (wearing shirt with the logo of one of the state’s bigger law firms). He was unshaven (admit that I don’t always shave on weekends), had scraggly hair, and generally looked to be a non-professional. He was constantly belittling her, she was looking at plants, and he was constantly telling her she was wrong, etc. Wound up scratching my head.

The woman I had been interested in has basically gone into social interaction shut down mode. Don’t hear her say hi to anyone anymore, or really interact with people much. We work in the same building in departments that interact.

I still wish that there was something I could do to make her better, but realized that there really isn’t. Seeing some of the things in her that I have displayed at times. As strange as it seems, I find myself saddened by that, because I know what it is like. Still have some conflicting emotions, which looking forward to potential future relationships, may need to be addressed.

There is a part of me that is, is in a way, satisfied that she is expriencing these things. Sort of a feeling of you thought manipulating people was fun, well, now that this had come home to roost, you are realizing just how lonely life can be. In short it is the karma is a ***** thing.