Dear XenopusTex:

Can you imagine all these people you see, no matter how unattractive they look like and behave, were once cute little babies, naturally loving and lovable? Can you imagine…? I recently saw a baby who didn’t look that cute though, didn’t look good. On further thinking, I believe that baby was born with drugs in his system or else was already harmed, and it showed on his face. There was suffering on that little face already.

Regarding the couple you saw, the educated woman with the unkempt man who kept putting her down- plenty of dysfunction to go around. Sometimes it shows on the person, unkempt appearance, foul mouth etc. and sometimes it doesn’t show- but on further observation, you see it.

Regarding the woman you were interested in, seems like she is in some kind of trouble, emotional trouble. Too bad she didn’t reach out or continue to reach out to you. I am thinking she is living in such mental fog, maybe an overwhelm state, that she is shutting down. In that mental fog she didn’t or doesn’t see your love for her. Too bad for her.

You wrote: “Seeing some of the things in her that I have displayed at times. As strange as it seems, I find myself saddened by that, because I know what it is like.”- Maybe it will be useful if you elaborate more on this?

“Still have some conflicting emotions, which looking forward to potential future relationships, may need to be addressed.” – you mean the empathy on one hand and the karma-is-a-*&^% anger? Tell me more?

anita